How to Disappear Completely

“Eloquent . . . An incredibly realistic portrayal of anorexia.” —The New Yorker

She devoured their memoirs and magazine articles, committing the most salacious details to memory to learn what it would take to be the very best anorexic. When she was hospitalized at fifteen, she found herself in an existential wormhole: How can one suffer from something one has actively sought out?

With attuned storytelling and unflinching introspection, Kelsey Osgood unpacks the modern myths of anorexia as she chronicles her own rehabilitation. How to Disappear Completely is a brave, candid and emotionally wrenching memoir that explores the physical, internal, and social ramifications of eating disorders.

“Osgood vividly portrays the creepy phenomenon of the ‘pro-ana’ movement and the claustrophobic, self-involved, achingly lonely world in which young women compete to be ‘perfect’ anorexics. . . . imbued with pathos and tenderness.” —Publishers Weekly

“What sets Kelsey Osgood’s memoir apart from the existing literature on anorexia is the author’s commitment to stripping the glamour and romance from the illness . . . Intelligent, moving, beautifully written, Osgood has written a paean to wellness, and taken a forthright look at everything that anorexia, ‘bastard child of vanity and self-loathing,’ took from her life.” —Molly McCloskey, author of Circles Around the Sun: In Search of a Lost Brother